these words

New Beginnings

2012-01-08T10:23:00.005+08:00

Last week, the class of 25 women started their 15-month Early Childhood course with Ms P. I am impressed by the ladies in this class, including myself, that we had chosen to put down whatever we had learnt or done previously to invest ourselves in learning for children. Talking about meaning in life! I think we are on our journey. :)

And in the 2 days with the 3-year olds in Noah's Ark, I think I am getting the hang of teaching these very little ones. Very thankful for Madam C as co-teaching partner, who is one of the most experienced teachers around. Writing lesson plans and preparing for class activities become a new 'past time'.

The weekend! On Saturday, our life group started the theme this year as 'New Beginnings'. Lammy brought us to the origin of the New T, which is from the Old T (Gen12:1-4). M got us thinking on one thing that we had never done and hope to do so in this new year. For me, I thought I might visit some friends in Nepal or some other places. The focus is 'Friends'. More likely, I will pay a visit to Sichuan this year.

Always I will hear teachers reminding me: 'You must be firm!' Oh yes, assertiveness is a trait I hope to master in good nature. E and I taught the pre-schoolers last evening about the miracles that JC did -- that we can be sure 'With God Everything is Possible' (Matt19:26b). I enjoyed the children more now, epecially seeing them having fun learning. Except for maybe 1 or 2 children who needed special attention. I really hope to understand them more through the EC course.

I do pray for a fresh anticipation of new things, like a little child.

An Overview of 2011

2012-01-08T10:00:00.001+08:00

As much fear I had when moving from somewhat like a familiar fishbowl to the large unknown sea, now coming back to Singapore after spending 2 years in China, was another experience of adjusting back. Reverse cultural shock per say.

The first 3 months of 2011 spent in TungLing was an experience I least expect. Thinking back are many divine memories with people of different background who gave up precious time to be together as God's family. I really misses those times and those people.

From April till August, I tutored 3 Chinese students under BY's guardianship which gave me a glimpse into the lives of these 15-18 year olds; and also understanding 7-year old Josh (May till December) and 9-year old Kryst (June till December). Considering 4/14, I was with JKC since April; Noah's Ark since end September. The last 3 months of 2011 was spent with the 5-year olds. With that, I decided to take up the Early Childhood course, after considering for 6 months.

The most traumatic part of adjusting back was to be staying with J for 3 months (19 Jun till end October), Ah Yi in November and K till mid November. Now being back home, I realised a lot about myself and am so much more thankful, in the knowledge of my God, who is faithful, understands me and gracious despite all my uncertainties.

I am also glad to be a part of the Christmas production with PKC, totally impressed with the youths' effort; and the Game of L was a meaningful finale of the year to reflect upon in the new year.

Game: One Step At A Time

2011-08-01T10:57:00.010+08:00

Yesterday had been a new level of understanding the pre-schoolers (3-6 year-olds) in the church basement. Apart from my earlier experience in China, I realised that E and I really should keep to 3 instructions at the most (1 or 2 directive and 1 hurdle). Many thanks to Ps Y, for being our guide and teacher, so needed by this team made up of teachers and helpers who have been amongst the youngest so far, to serve this generation.

The original intention of the game is to create an experience that is both physical and spiritual. And of course, to facilitate a sense of achievement and meaning for them with due directions, instructions and importantly, encouragement and motivation.

I like this idea as it is able to link to the lesson on the Road to Emmaus (Luke 24:13-35), and it gives me great joy to share with others, even to my life group last Saturday at LammyEve's place. I appreciate them for listening intently; M was able to give valuable feedback with his personal experience having being at the pre-schooler service with his son, S.

I am also thankful to the masking tape, the soft 'globe' balls and mini walking sticks so available for us to use from the backstage. Also, the sports shoes selflessly loaned by P and C.

First Anniversary of SC Earthquake

2009-05-12T21:05:00.010+08:00

5.12 - which also happens to be my dad's birthday will most likely be a day not easily forgotten. He told me that when people ask him about his birthday, he will just say it is the same day as the earthquake. And that everyone now knows and remembers. I agree. A Sichuan friend actually sms-ed to wish my dad birthday too.

After news of the swine flu spreading to this particular part of the world, I decided not to go town as alerted by Alfred. I went down the street for a haircut, ate at my most frequent jiao zi shop at '三碗饺' and something more meaningful though brief - patronised a fruit shop with 2 ladies watching SCTV 2 direct telecast of the memorial ceremony for the earthquake last year. When paying for pears and mini watermelon (for reducing heat), I asked them about the programme. They were very much affected when they had watched what happened to their countrymen last year. However this time as they watched, they did not feel the same anymore. Indeed time have levied the pain or healed the wound, leaving behind a scar. As if it will speak a thousand words, I spouted a God bless you as I leave them to continue watching the parade segment.

Scenic Emei Shan

2009-05-04T08:06:00.017+08:00

I have returned early morning yesterday, in time for our weekly gathering, from having conquered Emei Shan during the Labour Day Period (a holiday period the locals call '五一', consisting of 3 days, from Friday till Sunday). Some will use these days to return home, affordably a few hours away. It was a rare opportunity for me to join Alfred, his dad and YF to visit this famous mountain which I had heard and seen only on television programmes.

On Friday morning we set off at 8a.m. on a 2-hour ride to 峨眉镇．Due to the holiday season, the price of a single-bed hotel room jumped to 4.5 times its usual rate! We decided to take the bus ride to and fro to the middle scenic area. If we were to climb the mountain, I heard we will probably need 1-2 days.

We woke up and set off from our hotel at 3:30a.m. on Saturday morning to find ourselves amongst hundreds of people waiting to buy their ticket outside the bus terminal. We climbed a short distance to take the cable car which finally brought us to the 金顶.

The view reminds me of the experience I had at Srigriya, Sri Lanka. The experience of His creation -- the traces revealing His presence. How I wished for those who paid their way in to enter into temples to bow their knees to created objects in the hope of having their wishes fulfilled, to be able to reckon the full sacrifice made for them to come directly to fellowship with their Creator who knows exactly the great things He had done, as well as the plans He has for each of them!

We took the same route back to the hotel, and then to the hot spring in the evening which really helped to ease the aching in our leg muscles. It was good for us to rest and set off the next morning at 6:30a.m. back to 新南门车站.

First Cycling Experience

2009-04-28T17:54:00.010+08:00

It was exciting to have got on the chinese road for the first time on a bicycle a dear friend lent to me. Haha! To recall back the first time when I first used the pedestrian crossing.. and after I realised that traffic control is different from Singapore.. this is one personal breakthrough.

I rode to a bookstore 30mins walk away, stopped once to buy some oranges from a peddling fruit seller to quench thirst. The bookstore had moved 2 streets further and so I rode again. I bought a photo frame, a notebook, some stickers and a badge. The journey back was as easy as going there. I stopped by Carrefour for a can of cream corn to go with an asparagus dish, and picked up a packet of prunes on the way. I picked up a packet of sweet skin duck along the way to the wet market and returned. I parked the bicycle where it was and removed my purchases from the front basket.

I like the bicycle and enjoyed the freedom of riding it on the road. I wished there can be such a provision for bicycles in Singapore too. I like also these words, by Alfred D Souza, printed on the photo frame:

DANCE as though no one is watching you.
LOVE as though you have never been hurt before.
SING as though no one can hear you.
WORK as though you don't need the money.
LIVE as though today is your last day.

Edge of the Box

2009-04-23T11:44:00.011+08:00

Inspiration comes unexpectedly, in my opinion, most of the time. Somehow I had been waiting for this inspiration to sweep me into writing my blog once again, not out of a 'I-ought-to' but that 'I-want-to'. So, thank you, Guo Shi, for that blog entry about us, which gave me the confidence to write again, as honestly, as boldly and as real.

I have been struggling with the writing of a newsletter for the past few months. Same issue perhaps. First, there was fear, due to new ground - new expectations, more unknowns, new infringements that brought about new breakthroughs. I dared not write too much, after thinking too much. So, why do we need to do all this, sometimes I will ask. And I remember the very words I spoke to someone, that 'everything has its purpose'. Many times I realise between 'right' or 'wrong', and 'yes' or 'no', I begin to see the reality of 'yes' or 'no' playing their roles more in the events around me. Somehow, I hate the 'right' or 'wrong'.. for I can be reminded for being wrong for saying this. I seemed to have said this before in a blog posted earlier.. Hm, why surface again. I will probably come back to this again.

Well, something else to think about, I am going to cook nasi lemak this evening for friends to come. Lily's blog had been such a blessing to me, inspiring me to cook. She made it so simple for people like me. :)

Night Dreams

2009-04-05T21:42:00.015+08:00

Last week, a friend shared her dream. She saw herself and a friend driving down basement of 30 over levels, of which there are probably 50 over. Perhaps something to do with her flat search.

And then I recalled having a dream on the same night too. A bug with wings and a body like that of the cicada (which I remembered seeing being eaten deep-fried by some local Chinese). And I saw a hand plucking the wings off.

如‘遇见大圆满’

2008-12-28T22:14:00.009+08:00

现在已到这儿也有38天了。回想之前到今天，我才明白信心的能力——可使一个以前从不善常使用华语的我也开始改变了。这也是我感到非常意外的呀。。

来到了这个称为‘神州大地’的土地有一个像回到家特殊却熟悉的感觉。尤其是当知道外婆在12日过世后，有时会想她以前在家乡的生活到底是这么样的。。又如何会离乡背井，到新加坡去。这一切我深信都是已经安排好的。我在新来临的一年里，盼望我们家能在这计划里一同成长。我们爱，却需要跟多的力量。

现在最需要的，就是可以把一些美好的体验记录下来，与亲爱的朋友们同享！最后，想分享刚购买到的一本独特书刊——(2003) 谢尔*希尔弗斯坦(Shel Silverstein) 所写的‘失落的一角遇见大圆满’。

网址：http://www.shelsilverstein.com/

Heartlanders

2008-10-10T09:08:00.005+08:00

Having spent much time at home, I took a walk at our neighbourhood park this morning. The usual crowds of housewives who did their morning stretches and martial strokes. It is strange to feel so relieved of all responsibilities I had to bear and there seem to be a void.

I sat on the swinging bench for awhile and an Indian lady in her late 50s came by with her little grandson. They sat on a bench for awhile and a Malay lady also in her late 50s came by with her little grandson. I then witness something that warmed my heart: The Malay grandmother gave a curry puff to her grandson to offer to the other young lad. And the Indian grandmother helped her grandson to receive. They sat together for awhile and the Indian lady got off and left with her grandson, leaving the Malay lady and her grandson to themselves.

posted on 5 March 08, 11:40a.m.

'Who Moved My Cheese?' (1998)

2008-08-31T09:22:00.020+08:00

Last night, I picked up this book (written by Dr. Spencer Johnson) and the more I read, the more determined I was to finish it before I go to bed. In the parable, of all the 4 characters mentioned (Snif, Scurry, Hem and Haw), I could very much identify with Hem when he faced a change.

More There are also interesting variations for the Chinese, for e.g. 'Chinese People Eat Cheese?--Who Took My Meat Bun?' and 'Who Moved My Rice?' :D

Storms

2008-08-28T09:46:00.011+08:00

Someone 'foretold' I will go through a storm. I was apprehensive, having realise in all certainty that all things are possible with God. With that, I did find myself in a storm indeed, the battling of winds and waves in my head, losing heart.

I am glad, however, in the midst of this storm, I saw clearer the weakness of men (generic). Perhaps it is just the stages or seasons we are at. It shows how limited we can be. I have no doubt that we do need God - to know Him as He is.

The storm seems to have calm down; with rays of light shining through the soft drizzle.

Grandmother was admitted to the hospital last night, this time at NUH. I will go visit shortly. Must remember to bring my umbrella along.

Rojak

2008-07-30T14:38:00.011+08:00

The past months had been quite rojak. To realise that there's plenty of things I had wanted done, trying to gather a list of things I need to bring, while bearing in mind to travel light but not too light (whoever gave that advice is indeed wise..) and to give thoughts to what I can do in this one year. In the midst of the youtiao, banguan, taupok.. there's also the taugay of familarity I am going to miss.. And to gauge that balanced amount.

>Dolly come to visit - a pleasure to attend Tuesday prayer meeting with.
>Attended cousin Angeline's first born's full month @ Aranda - Nicole :)
>Gearing brother for his 'O's
>Tried leading one worship session at new set-up chinese service on Sunday late afternoon.
>Bought Veggie Tales DVD for KJ
>Visited Tsu Ching's new born son, Jacob. :) HuiYin, Nancy, KongSeng and I were brought through TC's delivery ordeal.
>Documented how Mum cooked her chicken curry
>Attended NOTA's talk on ABC in Interior Design @ Joo Chiat. Content was generally okay, though I would not agree with all the comments made.
>Visited Grandma at SGH, who was tense and tired after a fall resulting in crack in bone. :( Hope to visit her more nowadays.
>Pretty inspired to tidy our place after catching a few episodes of Supreme Matron. There's really alot of stuff to clear.

Q&A

2008-06-29T16:44:00.024+08:00

Lately, there are some questions which I find myself having to give answers for. The 2 most common and challenging ones are: 1.'When are you leaving?' and 2.'What will you be doing?' I realise that besides giving the possibility, the best answer I seem to have is, 'I do not know.' Perhaps the strangest thing is that it became a constant battle I have to feud within. Not that I do not try to find out. It seems like I am lost and is requiring of new faith. At times, I wished I can reverse or quit so that I can 'be in control' again.

An answer perhaps, Ash (Mum's loyal bah chang supporter and wonderful minister to the tenants staying with us) dropped by, as she often does. This time she asked the exact same questions and upon answering her, she prayed with me. Really appreciated.

'You asked when, when? It is now.' (Rev. Jane Lowder)
'Do not doubt. Go out in faith.' (Sis Debbie)
@ Renewal Camp, 9-12th June

To Whom do I have to answer; to Whom am I accountable.

His Story

2008-06-05T22:43:00.015+08:00

I used to get F9 grades for most of my tests and examinations under the subject, History. Even under the 'scrupulous' guidance of Miss Shirley Lau, one History teacher I will never forget. Many students had scored As with her, but me. Miraculously, I actually passed with a C6 for O Levels! It wouldn't be possible if without her. I had often found it a challenge to remember or memorise stuff, including lyrics.. Strangely, I recall minute details which surprise myself sometimes too.

For the past nights, I have been diligent in searching stuff on wikipedia and began to have better understanding as I traced back the people (leaders and organisations) and sources (of inspirations) who/ that had made great impact to our world today. They had held to/ originated and branched from a belief system as of the world's largest even till today. God, I hardly paid attention to these things that had always been going on! I was pretty 'blinded' myself. It was just head knowledge. There are too much that my human capacity can hold.

Success Seminar

2008-06-01T23:23:00.009+08:00

Have been rather tied up with 2 projects for the past week or so. As I sat through today's seminar by Uncle Song and Uncle Patrick, I cannot but recalled the different people who had impacted my life.. people whose hearts are tuned to God - Sis, you're one of the very first. Thank you for teaching me to sing that very first song we both am so familiar with. :)

The song selected for me to sing at the end of the seminar, to my surprise, was the one sung by Faye Wong: 我願意

思念是一種很玄的東西　
如影　隨行
無聲又無息出沒在心底　
轉眼　吞沒我在寂寞裡
我無力抗拒　特別在夜裡　
哦．．．．．．想你到無法呼吸
恨不能立即　朝你狂奔去　
大聲的告訴你　唔．．．．．．

我願意為你　我願意為你
我願意為你　忘記我姓名
就算多一秒　停留在你懷裡
失去世界也不可惜
我願意為你　我願意為你
我願意為你　被放逐天際
只要你真心　拿愛與我回應
什麼都願意　什麼都願意為你
我什麼都願意　什麼都願意為你

曲：黃國倫　詞：姚謙　編曲：Nathan Wong

7:30pm, heard Zhang Bo Li personally.

I am really looking forward to hearing Jane Lowder at camp this year. :)

Cycling at Pulau Ubin ( ACTS - OCSF )

2008-05-18T23:56:00.014+08:00

Photo (from left): Xiao Liu, Mervyn, BingXing, SunHuang, YingXi, TianSheng (Taylor), ZiLi, WuNan, OuYang WenJing, XiXi, YongLiang, Genie, Dawn, Rachel, Charles, MeiLing, JunQing, BiLin, YYH (Yoke Hiong) & DingSheng

Congratulations to everyone who had survived cycling for more than 5 hours around Pulau Ubin on Saturday. Apart from the chain that came off OuYang & WuNan's double bicycle and the sole that came off from MeiLing's sandal, everything went smooth! Many thanks to those who organised. :)

Dinner gathering (CTSS)

2008-05-15T20:00:00.005+08:00

Photo (from left): HuiYin, ShuJun, myself, NgaipHui, Nancy, XueHua & Fred

Despite the initial mixed up of which Waruku outlet to go to at Marina Square, we made it to dinner at Marina Waruku at first level, just opposite Pan Pacific Hotel. I tried the Potato Mentai (pickled cod roe) out of curiousity. Serving was pretty small for S$8.80 but it tasted good with the hot cheese on top of it. I received a book 'Wood: Houses & Interiors' published by PageOne and a bottle of fragrance 'Baby Doll' that comes in a music box by YSL. Stuff that will surely come in useful. It is amazing how everything (people in this instance) became part of our lives - the people who know your 'quirks and twists'. Will surely miss these people.

Amazing grace

2008-05-14T13:09:00.008+08:00

A true friend would be the one who would risk what you think of him, even to tell you the most 'foolish' news in order to 'save your soul';

The one true friend did the most 'foolish' to give His life for the ones who would mock Him. The grac-iousness we exercise was what this 'foolish' man have started.

How amazing this grace modelled and practised for generations - knowingly, and unknowingly! We just want to pass it on!

Recommended read:
'More Than a Carpenter' by Josh McDowell
'So What's the Difference?' by Fritz Ridenour

勇敢

2008-05-13T12:51:00.014+08:00

Ah Mei's Song: 勇敢 (released June 2003)
seems to relate more now than when I first heard the song.

生命的伤痕　苦涩　寂寞
最难的是面对内心那个脆弱不安的自己　
阿妹和你一起勇敢

1.黑暗中寂静伸出的双手　
冰冷的空气像火　害怕又收手
路太远　谁的眼神能永远　
忘了跟你一起走　怎样才会懂
记忆里　爱应该总是温柔　
有了这一切　才能不怕黑夜

C:是我勇敢太久　决定为你一个人而活　
不能说出口　那么折磨
勇敢了太久　城市充满短暂的烟火无处躲　
照亮了沉默　明白是寂寞 (爱原来寂寞)

2.谁说过　爱会让人不自由　
所以你要我等候　换你的追求
有太多　快乐自私做藉口　
你让我最后　把心痛当拥有

3. 夜太黑　看不见　你在我身边　
心伤悲　泪水失去防备

Love China

2008-05-07T20:00:00.001+08:00

(Pending blog on ChengDu visit from 16th-22 April)

Going in-saint

2008-04-07T18:23:00.004+08:00

It feels like forever and some days can seem mentally toiling - of thoughts of losing everything familiar; in order to gain something unknown. And then, wanting to hold onto everything - especially memories.

And got to stay cool about this eh? Haha.. Of course lah.

Song by CCR: Have You Ever Seen The Rain?

2008-04-02T19:20:00.004+08:00

Someone told me long ago
there's a calm before the storm,
I know; its been comin for some time.
When its over, so they say,
itll rain a sunny day,
I know; shinin' down like water.

Chorus:
I want to know,
have you ever seen the rain?
I want to know,
have you ever seen the rain
Comin down on a sunny day?

Yesterday, and days before,
sun is cold and rain is hard,
I know; been that way for all my time.
til forever, on it goes through the circle,
fast and slow,I know;
it can't stop, I wonder.

Creedence Clearwater Revival

Nowadays, I just want to grab on anything that inspires. I'm glad I still do. :)

Quotes

2008-03-31T12:01:00.006+08:00

"Don't ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who have
come alive."
Howard Thurman

Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see
the whole staircase, just take the first step.
Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
American Civil Rights Leader

Less of, More of

2008-02-27T20:51:00.003+08:00

Today, I almost sprained my sprained ankle on site again.

I am very much reminded of the passage in Matthew 6. I feel like the strange orange that Jye Lyu spoke of early this month - after being crushed and released some 'fragrance', it formed back into an orange again. It had been a lot of 'I' and 'me' recently.. Change, change.

One Step At A Time

2008-02-21T13:26:00.004+08:00

Heart, don't fail me now
Courage, don't desert me
Don't turn back now that we're here
People always say
Life is full of choices
No one ever mentions fear
Or how a road can seem so long
How the world can seem so vast
Courage see me through
Heart I'm trusting you
On this journey...to the past
Somewhere down this road
I know someone's waiting
Years of dreams just can't be wrong
Arms will open wide
I'll be safe and wanted
Fin'lly home where I belong
Well, starting here, my life begins
Starting now, I'm learning fast
Courage see me through
Heart I'm trusting you
On this journey...to the past
Heart don't fail me now
Courage don't desert me
Home, Love, Family
There was once a time
I must have had them too
Home, Love, Family
I will never be complete
Until I find you...
One step at a time,
One hope, then another
Who knows where this road may go
Back to who I was
On to find my future,
Things my heart still needs to know
Yes, let this be a sign
Let this road be mine
Let it lead me to my past
Courage see me through
Heart I'm trusting you
To bring me home...
At last At last
Courage see me through
Heart I'm trusting you

Anastasia Soundtrack, Journey To the Past

The sprain I had is teaching me to take a step at a time.
To slow down. To be patient. There was pain at first, then much uncertainty. To learn to trust, to share on the experience, and take some painful steps. Allow the hurting to heal, and now walking like normal. Soon, I will be able to run, jump and be free!

Review 2007

2008-01-25T23:55:00.001+08:00

After our company's appraisal session on Monday, it was self-reflection on the year's main scope of work. Overall, I was very much encouraged by the review and of course, challenged to improve further. Thank God for such understanding and loving authorities, who trust and share, like friends do. I appreciate each of the co-workers, for who they are - special beings who choose to bless others in each of their special ways. Especially those who take extra steps to be honestly themselves, like iron sharpening iron. I would not have improved over the year without you. Thank you for trusting me. I am all in to celebrate our success tomorrow evening!

Perhaps it was the preoccupation in thoughts that I lost focus on my physical surroundings. Is it surprising that it is the first time I did sprain my ankle? For some, sprains and fractures seems like part and parcel, I realised. Haha. Nevertheless, I appreciate the kind advice from friends these few days. I am getting better and faster, taking care not to loss balance in my eager to recover. I shall miss my badminton, swimming, cycling and shopping khakis for at least 2 weeks from now.. *sob* Chinese New Year is coming, you know. I shall be guai and be still..

Thinking forward, this year is going to be exciting I see. Planning ahead: Hoping to take up part-time teaching sessions with TP, make trips to the Philippines and China. Details are yet confirmed and thus the need for patient anticipation. Thanking the Lord for each breathe, each new morning. Each day serves its purpose, and preparations. Reading on Proverbs for much wisdom.

'Upgrade'

2008-01-16T19:22:00.000+08:00

Yippy! I passed Basic Theory Test for Driving yesterday. Haha. It really felt great to progress ever since failing the first attempt. Never, never study editions dated as far back as 1996 (which was Mum's copy).

These days I hardly had the room to bump around.. due to a deadline coming soon. One highlight of each day -the television programs on TV - the drama series from 9pm, and Coffee Prince (Korean), which never fail to make me crack. Really weird characters and storyline. It is terrible to spend so much time in front of the 'black box'. I should stop once these shows are over.

Is the holiday mood still lingering or just a change of season? I need to get to working gear, to get design ideas flowing. Also, to master guitar this time, pick up some useful cookery basics from Mum, and make the most of my library premium privileges before it expires next month! (Manage to watch DVDs on 'Martin Lurther King', 'Charles Darwin's Bibliography', 'The Mystery of the MegaFlood' last weekend and left with 'The Fall of Communism'.) New year resolutions.

Ohh... and to improve the out-look of my blog. Have been wanting to do so for a long time!

My New Year Day + week

2008-01-05T21:08:00.000+08:00

A wedding, a funeral and a newborn to mark the beginning of the new year.

Shawn and Adeline shared their romantic moment with everyone who came to witness and bless. The programs were somehow different and interesting. Afterwhich I made a trip very much looked forward, to the botanical garden.

The garden was still as familiar, only that it had a new group of people. I wandered to stumble into new things, and finally settled at a random spot, joining everyone who was scattered over the greens. The after rain set the tone. There was the plea of a young girl asking her dad to have their umbrellas opened beside them (her family) even though the area was already much sheltered with trees (*giggles*). It was kind of funny that she had wanted what seem more like a beach setting. The interesting crowd included some monks who were playing frisbee beside me, having a great time. People blend in perfectly with nature. The magic of a garden is that it accepts behaviours which some other public places do not. I spread out on my shower screen (which was as applicable as a ground sheet) and harmonised with my surroundings. It was a day I thought well-spent, as purposeful as working diligently or helping others - to be heartful of my being.

4th Jan, I attended brother Vincent Tan's funeral at Jelapang. He had departed on new year day, sucumbling to the functional breakdown of his body. The bereaved family members stayed strong with the memories left by the one who had loved. The positive message shared by Elder Chen was edifying, illustrating the better place that had been prepared for those who believe its existance and the One who prepare this place.

I had visited Sister at her in-laws' place yesterday evening. It was great to see her after about 2 months. She is getting better since the birth of Kai Xuan but not enough for her to get around like before. Kai Xuan had grown lovelier; her smiles spreaded from her lovely face to mine. :) I played with her little elder brothers, and was very much entertained by their little talks. Kids. Haha.. I think I am still one.

Curry Week

2007-12-27T14:43:00.000+08:00

If I am what I eat, then I think I look like curry now. Green, brown, yellow, red.. I am abstaining from these for at least one month from now. I am serious.

20 Dec to 26 Dec 2007 at Sri Lanka was Mason Works' incentive trip for all staff and family. To sum it up, it was really great, very honestly. I need time to savour each moment spent with the group, at each hotel and corner visited. Will attach some of the interesting photos soon. Was at Sigiriya rock fortress.

Savouring the nature that Sri Lanka holds, I am just so charmed by the romantic side of God.. How small am I, yet He knows.

SCSM 2007

2007-12-03T18:04:00.000+08:00

My body is aching from the run yesterday and my patience is running from the slow loading needed for each of those photos taken during the run... So if you are free, do take time and enjoy the photos on the website below (Limited time only!!!). And I'm sure that you're also kind to let me know when you do see me.. Hee. Anyone that looks like the girl on the other photos on this blog, I think you will not miss. Short black hair, with spectacles, knee length pants, the same blue adidas gym top, a little 'well-fed' :( , and with ear plugs. Well, I should be smiling all the way. And if you do not know me and doing this favour, a bigger thank you!

Oh BTW - I was running the 10KM-Women's Race. Look out for Evelyn, Jenny Yeong, Kelvin Tan, YongLiang, Pei Yuan, Adrian, Daphne, Jamie, Edmund, HanQiang too! Check out this soon! http://www.adidas.com.sg/marathon2007/

Hey, I had also found my results on the SCSM website:
http://www.runpix.biz/sin07/11/finord.php?LastNameEM=53235
Evelyn, Jenny, Jamie, Daphne did better! Congrats! Haha, means I need to pull up my socks if I plan to compete next year. Or should I have wrote on my card: 'My first and last 10km'. Kidding.

This is Life!

2007-11-24T12:41:00.000+08:00

Every day had been just so... undescribably awesome.
Fulfilling. Abundant. Abiding. Overflowing. Totally Awed?
No words. Simply beyond description. :)

Since early November, there had been so many people gatherings (which are not all recorded) :
met many of my relatives I hardly knew over the years at my paternal and maternal cousins' weddings, then welcoming the new entrys of new relatives;
bowling and dinner at Allan's yacht club - delicious seafood BBQ and getting to enjoy the fellowship of the worshipper's club;
attended An Ding's baptism pior their return back to China end of the month (Luo Yun was there as well) afterwhich joined Sean, Esmer and FangBao at East Coast Park for cycling (it was the first time ever that Esmer cycled! That was real cool, thanks to Sean's hard pedalling infront of their double bicycle. Haha!);
Catch Andy Chee (for lunch on Sunday after service) who stopped by Singapore for a short while; Swam with Teresa;
Listened to Sherin's awesome research and spiritual journey;
Felt happy on WeiXiang's first day at Ritz Carlton (his vacation job, and it's at my favourite hotel!);
Dumpling Party at Mervyn's place as farewell for AnDing and LuoYun; afterwhich joined the Pictionary party at ShuJun's place (I enjoyed myself so much that I plan to get pictionary too!);
Went swimming with colleague Sukey nearby our new office;
Attended Thanksgiving Worship Service at Geylang Chinese Methodist Church with Habitat for Humanity Singapore - it was great catching up with the thankful bunch;

Today Biaoge's 'last English class' before he leaves for Kazahkstan; it was wonderful learning English in a new different way with the students, using Rick Warren's 40 Days of Purpose Driven Life book. Went for Enchanted with Gee Wee and totally enjoy the company and the movie. Bought a mosquito helicopter for Christmas and meant it as a mystery gift to the fun-at-hearts in the family (Shh..Do not tell my mother yet, okay?)

GOSH, I am overwhelmed. Do not worry, it is not 'overloaded'. Wish there is time to explain all.. the emotions, thoughts and joy.. However, I am exhausted from all these. I shall leave this blog as it is now... Oh GOD, I am so sleepy now.

Shifting our second home

2007-11-02T16:44:00.000+08:00

The 'last' lunch (which I recall to be also the first lunch I had on my first day with Mason) - Salted vegetable, stewed peanuts and pig's intestines from Yong bak kut teh stall at Mohammad Sultan Road was eaten in reminiscence. The office is shifting to Alexandra Road within hours and I simply had no mood but to wait for time to pass quickly. Looking forward to the new location!

Goodbye, Kim Yam. I will bring along the memories of this shophouse; interesting neighbours with their cigars, black dresses and suits, japanese cusine, beers, music (and residents, together with their animals and plants); dust and noise from surrounding constructions (3 different condominium sites, by the way); extended area including Mohd Sultan, UE square, Liang Court, Clark Quay; Killiney Road, Singtel canteen, Orchard Road - the routes my feet covered.. And the spiritual journey I treaded in parallel time.

forget-Him-not

2007-10-31T20:09:00.000+08:00

My greatest fear:

to forget what I realised about God and His ways

(Rom 8:28 - that everything indeed has a purpose)

My greatest joy:

when I remembered that without faith, it is impossible to please Him

My greatest assurance:

He is always present to remind me once again; to re-discover the joy of re-discovering Him

Facebook - 'My Room'

2007-10-29T13:48:00.000+08:00

Woo.. These images has been cropped from my favorite feature in Facebook! Recently acquainted with (yet) another 'internet club'...

It's fun and, I totally enjoyed this 'My Room' feature. Nancy, hor? ;)

Glam Affair!

2007-10-24T23:28:00.000+08:00

An evening just spent at tcc (the coffee connoisseur) at Atrium, next to Plaza Singapura. It was filled with glam and (I must say) that much thoughts had been put into the entire event. I totally enjoyed myself!

There were quite a number of the good-looking people we had see on television programs. It was cool as much emphasis were made in support of the arts scene in Singapore. Just some snapshots taken!

(instant photocard taken with Sukey and NN)

(tcc client rep - Abbey!)

(more snapshots... guess which is whose!?)

(one of the special guest we got to take photo with: Einstein!!!)

(Tatoo fun! one of our directors - Wan!)

(That's it for now!)

*tcc is one of Mason Works' (my current company) clients - who engages MW's professional service of contracting interior fittings to most, if not all, of their boutique cafes. :D

Nieces

2007-10-19T17:26:00.000+08:00

I had lunch today with somebody who took care of me for awhile when I was very young. Perhaps, I was only 1. It had been a very long while since I met Gu Ma (姑妈). We never really understood each other very well due to the time spent together. For the first time perhaps I felt I start to know her better. Just as I looked and listened to her (especially when she addressed me as her niece), I was reminded of my 1 month-to-be niece that had just arrived. :) Tears welled up in my eyes as she described my younger days. Haha..

And mothers, how self-less they are! To carry this responsibility, flesh to flesh. Their sacrifices belittled. Perhaps misunderstood many many times. Relations are fragile; yet so special - Specially arranged.

Looking forward to Kai Xuan's (my niece) full month this coming Saturday.

(photo posted on 31.10.07: Kai Xuan on her full month)

More dates to remember:
3rd Nov - cousin (maternal side) David's wedding
4th Nov - cousin (paternal side) Jason's wedding

Perceptions

2007-10-04T13:38:00.000+08:00

Lunched today at simply bread at robertson quay, with River Place in view. It was an unusually normal lunch with a friend (I would now call), whom we had spent that year 'battling' for our dear passion * design * on 4th level of soon-to-go Lasalle SIA campus block at Goodman Road.

Tanny had her Club Sandwich and I, the Chunky Egg sandwich. It was absolutely yummy (just my share cost s$8.10, for which was loaned on the terms of simply grace extended by this dear friend. :D) It was simply heaven, just sitting by the river, biting into our chunk of stuff.

I was shown STPI gallery, which holds the 27th Anniversary Exhibition of Printmaking Society Singapore.

It was not the exhibit. Out of 'no-where', I realised the art form as an expression of the diversity of human perceptions. There can be no explanation, no limitation. Or vice versa. It becomes your call. Definitely you can say I am wrong. ;)

Gosh, so philosophical. A sign of growing up, I guess.

Thank You

2007-09-20T00:01:00.000+08:00

"It's bubbling, it's bubbling, it's bubbling in my soul..", sang Pastor M. Geppert, very often when we used to hear him speak to the congregation. Now I can feel it. I do not like to depend too much on feelings but it does denote a lot about what's going on inside now. It feels as if my feet aren't really touching the ground. Yet. Indeed, there's a time to sow, and a time to reap. We sow in tears, but we reap in joy!

I met a few new friends this past 2 weeks. And it brought back some wonderful memories from the past. It simply is, amazing. The Author reveals when we least expected. I anticipate what tommorrow brings. All I want to say is just, "thank You, thank You, thank You. You are all that matters, Father."

The Wake Up Call

2007-09-11T12:01:00.000+08:00

I had a glimpse of what was showing on TV Mobile during my short interval bus ride to work this morning. Channel News Asia presented short clips of important people in US giving speeches on this fateful day, commemorating the tragic that happened six years ago. Soon there will be Freedom Tower.

It was depressing as I had pondered about the hopes we unknowingly hold within. I had hopes for a home i can feel rested in, 'God's leading' for things to go well in my daily life, satisfaction in work and relationships. These, I presumed to be reasonable. However, things around me came to wake me up. Someone in the office mentioned a man whom he knew for years had just committed suicide. The details caused me to ponder, like never before. I was really disturbed. Then, I heard someone had died during a run. This person is my age. Young, intelligent and full of potential and a bright future likely ahead of him. How many times I had heard of these stories and how much I took life for granted. Last but not least, my parents has completed their proceedings to be divorced. Life starts all over again.

'Life is fragile', I will hear everyone say. Now, each time I look at the news on the papers, its clearer to me the situation we are in. But I dun see many people seeking to live life in its full purpose. Just for example: How shocking can it be to hear from close friends (whom some are christians) I have known who expressed open-ness to homosexuality. 1 Corinthians 6

How long can this physical earth remain? Why is there Earth Day? Why find life on Mars or other possible place for survival? Hope is dimming each day for this world. I had only found one answer. I especially found comfort during this season through the song 'The Answer', as prepared in Corrinne May's album, 'The Gift'. For the past 3 weeks, I am just filled with such joy and purpose. No longer thirsting and wandering. I remembered. I was just blinded with ambition, thoughts and plans.

Walk On!

2007-08-20T12:56:00.000+08:00

18 August The Heartstrings Walk officially started at 9 a.m. It was the first time I walked with a crowd - through the Singapore River trail. It was fun to have PL as company as we treaded the route that had been marked out for us. It took us an hour to complete the 6-km walk.

Kareen joined us at the end and we lunched at 'Old' Hong Kong at Marina Square foodcourt. Last snapshot was of the equipment on-site for the evening fireworks. After lunch, we got on separate appointments and that's when Mum, Aunty MeiZhu and Esmer accompanied for that evening's fireworks - it was simply awesome but quite brief. I was indeed glad to be back home after a full day at Marina Bay!

Discovering the Gender Difference

2007-08-14T10:55:00.000+08:00

I have completed my read of the book, 'Wild at Heart' by John E. There is a lot of stuff in there which I felt has helped to clear the fog i see of the musculine soul. Now I am reading the other book by John and his wife, Stasi - 'Captivating'. There is discovery and freedom in these reads, and not another set of 'to-do' lists. Recommended.

Posted on 11.09.07

Run, My Child

2007-08-10T13:07:00.000+08:00

I shall attempt to write some poems. Can be very kindergarten-ish..

Start training for the race,
Fix what is in disarray,
Fight with what you have,
For there will be an end.

Stop the wandering,
disheartening and wondering,
For there shall be no difference
At the end.
Hebrews 12

The other day I stumbled upon the repeat telecast of 跑吧！孩子 (Homerun), directed by Jack Neo. I had missed earlier telecasts and so I sat there watching like a curious cat. I started watching from the point when one of the main cast - the sister, was with her mother who in labourpains, needed the attention of the midwife who had dozed off across the other side of the village. Parallel senario - the brother was running a race with a very strong competitior.

The young girl raced over difficult grounds - part of which was scattered with glass chips, to get to the midwife; the boy got stuck in deep mud with many other runners passing from behind. Their common goal was similar - to run for the one they loved. In the end, the mother delivered, the competitor at race became friend, and they received their priced new shoes. What an impressive production.

I felt the need for me to take action - to do something, especially with what is ahead as a start.

Updates

2007-08-06T12:27:00.000+08:00

An urgent deadline which required extra hours from Thursday till Saturday late evening. Earlier plans to go Streams of Praise (SOP) and stayover at Kareen's were cancelled. Grateful to Rachel Ou who swopped vocal slots at last minute.

Managed to catch some great fun with CTSS Grads '98 at Aloha Changi on Sat night, binging on barbequed chilli sotong and the usual few of us played 'blind cat' with much persuasion from Pornsak (be sure to catch him co-hosting some of the variety shows on television only if you are free). Left early to rest for the next day, which I realised was a wise decision. Running between 2 services on Sunday morning to make sure I captured Mum on stage at Chinese Service and listened to Ps Tim's message at English Service, had lunch and listened to Ps Song's message at Bilingual Service, had coffee with Andy Chee before he leave for US today, and sat through 3 hours of Pentacostal Foundations.

Back home yesterday, I had to think through some of the things which had been bugging me - and especially having spoken with Andy over coffee. (How can I not thank you for those words at the end, if you recall what you said? You seemed to have hit on the nail, brother.) The kind of counsel much needed these days, came from this trusted man, whose faith brought him to where he is. Thank God for you.

Will be attending wake of Eugene's grandfather this evening.

Celebrating Possibilities

2007-07-31T18:17:00.000+08:00

This year's National Day celebration is definitely going to be fun! Check: www.ndp.org.sg

I will definitely be walking with President S R Nathan at the Marina Bay Challenge in the morning of 18th August, and looking at fireworks in the evening @ Singapore Fireworks Celebrations!

We are small, but we are hot!

'A New Beginning'

2007-07-27T12:48:00.000+08:00

It is one of those moments to feel happy, yet upset. A milestone.

An sms from Sis that informed that all the proceedings are going to be settled and over.. in a month's time.. What to think, what to say?

Only to keep moving forward.

Ezekiel 36:26-27

2007-07-25T12:33:00.000+08:00

Verses from the Bible, as quoted in 'Wild at Heart' by John Eldredge:

26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you;
I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you
a heart of flesh.

27 And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws.
Ezekiel 36

'Petrol Kiosk' Break

2007-07-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

I have finally made the choice to step back a little from back-up singing on alternate Sundays. It felt sad to draw myself away from a commitment I enjoyed, yet there seems to be the need to slow down to see if this is where I should continue to move onwards. Even if it means to stop doing what it seems to be right.
(Right: Majority of worship team members - Jeff, Derek, WenKang, Weisheng, WeiJie, me, Adrian, MeiZhen, Ps Tim, Amy, JerYaw, Allan, Daphne, Petrina, Shawn and HuiJun)

I remember the words quoted by Mervyn, friend and cell group leader, whom I respected and received much encouragement and support at times needed (especially in terms of missions and my spiritual growth):

Success is to be at the right place, at the right time, doing the right thing.

tcc @ german centre

2007-07-19T13:27:00.000+08:00

This was the first retail conceptual design I did for my company last year.
Even though it was not selected for construction, it was fun doing it. :D

Feasting Season

2007-07-14T13:10:00.000+08:00

All the dinners with good old friends recently had made me fat and down with gastric pains, despite the attempts to exercise more nowadays. Wave set on the low with the need to give myself a break, to watch my health and get 'detoxificated'. Maybe to eat vegetable for a while will be good.

Since late June, these are where I had been (eating):

Wasabi Tei, one Japanese restaurant well-hidden on the 5th level of Far East Plaza. Esmer and I spotted a long queue of patrons on a Friday evening and joined the queue for curiousity sake. The pricing is reasonable, for good serving of good authentic Japanese food, but just too long a wait. Esmer and I could hardly walk after the meal. It was too much.

It felt like many years since I last met Adele, whom we got to know each other through the housing re-construction trip we had made with Habitat for Humanity to Aceh, Indonesia in Dec 2005. Dinner at Hooters @ Clark Quay, had us caught up with each other.

The group that is familar to itself crowded around a table of home-cooked dishes at YongLiang's place, as we enjoyed special company from Perth. Thank you, Andy, for the words and love you've brought! (photos: YongLiang, BingXin, ChongZhen, Andy and Mervyn/ JinYu, Andy and me)

Szechuan Court at Raffles The Plaza served pretty delicate and unique Chinese cusine. That was where we went for our company's mid-year dinner. Nice ambience and company of bosses and colleagues: Wan, Robin, Mr Ng, Lao Wu, Vincent, Jessie and NanNan.

I had attended three wedding receptions within 2 weeks, there were:
Rachel (her husband, Ray), my poly-mate from SP (DAT), at Novotel (photo: Lydia, me, Rachel and Peiling. It has been long since we meet up, gals. It was great to see MeiMei, Ridzuan, Nicole and Jeff again),

Adrian and Daphne, (on 070707, together with 700 other couples in Singapore on this day), at our church and

Tsu Ching (her husband, Jeffery), my secondary school-mate from CTSS, at Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel (photo: Kevin, Nancy, me, KongSeng, ShuJun, HuiYin, Eugene, Teck and Moses).

Mum's birthday is just around the corner. Her culinary skill never fail to satisfy the 'multitude' as she provided lunch for her regular singing khakis at the church carporch (photo: Sis, Mum and 'god-grandmother'). Jie (in her 6/7th month) posed with my nephew, KaiJie, whose birthday is nearing too!

Last Tuesday was the second round of the singing competition. No, I did not get through this round. I am disappointed but it is not something to dwell on for too long. It will take a lot more that singing, to become a good stage 'performer'. I cannot totally say I am not heading that way. Therefore I need to keep improving. We had supper, with Sean and Esmer at Cineleisure's Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe before heading home that night.

Lunch Buddy!

2007-06-22T13:55:00.000+08:00

My poly buddy, PL and I lunched together at Singtel (just next to Somerset MRT exit)

Hee.. Food's really cheap!

Overdued

2007-06-17T09:57:00.000+08:00

The past two weeks had been really good. Enjoying myself so much that I procrastinate the less enjoyable (still enjoyable) - to find words to describe. I am really not a good writer, but I love to share. ;) And so I shall blog..

This noon I have sent out the details for the missons office to Ps. M. 5 hours this morning to work with and I think I am satisfied with the first draft design. I believe it is sufficient for the contractor to understand. Why am I not in church on Sunday morning? Eh.. Yes, I should be in church this morning but I choose service otherwise.. Hee.. Moreover, I was feeling unwell so it was good that I have the bed once I completed the work. I was bounded to bed till around 6pm today, missed the regular badminton sessions every Sundays with the regular group. Felt relaxed and lazy and so went for a haircut. Its really short now. :D Since a long time I cut it so short as I always looked kiddish.. but I am not so bothered already. Just cut. Brother said I looked nerdy.. whatever lah. 8)

Today I started flipping the pages of 'Wild At Heart' by John Eldredge and it drew me to read more.

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Renewal Camp 2007 @ Hyatt Regency, JB

03.06.07Sun Bilingual Service was over at around 12:40pm and I met Ps. M at the church office to take a look at the mission office to see how to make the space more conducive for working. It was a good start as I got to know her better before we got on the camp. The advance party consisted of 33 of us, mainly young adults, who departed for JB at around 2pm.
We arrived at Hyatt Regency at around 3:10pm. It was simply beautiful, grand and just neat. Just after we settled our bags in our rooms, all of us went to City Square for shopping before heading to Taman Sentosa for seafood. Shaun F., Alex, YP and myself shared cab. The 4 of us never really know how the taxi fare worked in JB and made bad acquaintance with one cab driver. Well, that was a good lesson and we all learnt to always confirm the fare before getting onto any JB cab. Seafood dinner was good.. We (Ps. M, Sam, YW, YP, C and R) had stingray, chilli crab, ma po tou fu and I like especially the herbal chicken wrapped with earth. Sugarcane juice which came a size larger than what we have in Singapore. After the satisfying meal, we returned to the hotel for a session of worship and sharing. That stretched from 9-10:45pm as YYH, Ps. M and AY shared on the purpose of the young adult ministry. My heart was much stirred again when Ps. M touched on missions.

04.06.07Mon The official first day of camp started. The administration's done and everyone seemed really to encounter God and a refresh of our souls. The English speaker, Richard Williams, was the main highlight of the retreat. He spoke of how to restore our cutting edge. He was really entertaining, but that is not all, he has something we all wanted. Anointing.

The evening session held something unexpected. I received a word.

RW: "I saw a picture. Very interesting. A person is laying in bed. God is saying to this person, 'You used to talk to Me about everything. But something is lost. Something got complicated. And I am always waiting for you.'"
Immediately I broke down and dropped the mask I tried to wear so that people will not be overly concerned that I cannot handle. I had tried to be tough. And that was not too tough. All I needed to do was to ignore the emotions. I do not recommend this method as it really do not work. It will only choke up your waste pipe. That picture came so familiar. It brought back memories of the time where I spend time with the Lord - on my bed. Playing guitar, kneeing or laying down praying, with my head on my tear-patched pillow. Bedtime chatting with A led us to finding common hearts.

05.06.07Tue After the first night, the rest of sessions were highlighted with powerful messages that just motivate and send. For the young adults like me, YYH collated some video and materials related to the book we are so familiar with, 'Men from Mars, Women from Venus' by John Gray. I had read halfway through this book and passed it to E. I have also gone on to some other books relating to the opposite gender. 'Bringing Up Boys' by James Dobson was solid information and reliable study. 40% through. I guess being a woman who had somehow a poor idea of a man's character, I struggled along my brother's growth as a boy, now a teenager. The absence of a father can be destructive. I failed at times when my words do not encourage but spoke negatively. These books helped a lot and I recommend them for women who do not have their own children. It is never too early.

To learn swimming again was not intended for this camp. Nevertheless it was one achievement to I picked up where I left when I gave up on swimming, with much encouragement from Constance and Vivien, who are really great teachers. Then soaking in the warm 'boiling' jacuzzi was absolutely luxurious. Come to dinnertime, it was set aside just for Mom. It was the company, not the food that count. :)

06.06.07Wed The last night's session, the church leaders prayed for almost everyone. Ps. M came and prayed for me at the front while I was doing vocal back-up. It was confirmation and invitation. Sidetrack: Sis, God heard you. He spoke, not once but twice.
It was past midnight when I visited the young ladies and played some games. It was a pity that I had so little time with them but they seemed to enjoyed each other's company so far, so I was glad. :D

Overall, it was one camp I would not forget. I believe many, if not all of us, were refreshed.
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12th June, I got through the first round of BAS half-hearted as I almost wanted to give up. Thankful, I had another chance to give my shot. Now, what song to sing? What song with a message?

Mayed

2007-05-30T14:31:00.001+08:00

MAY had been a lot of evaluation and thinking done. I love life not for its hipe but for its up-and-downs. Just like a roller coaster ride, filled with mixed emotions which made it confusing sometimes, but memorable. Without the 'downs', I will not know how high I had actually been. It can be frustratingly amazing.

3 days, and the design I was talking about had been submitted. I think it was okay but until the client get back to us.. I shall keep my fingers crossed for now and hope for the best. Shall put it on blog later on. :]

There is this new anticipation I have for this year's church camp which will be from 4th till 7th June, next week actually. I am excited to be bunking with Amy, a sister whom I served with in the English service but have yet to know very well. There is something I respect and admire about her - her using her talent to serve God, with much faithfulness and joy. And also two other Chinese ladies I enjoyed, YP and YD, from my cell group. I just so look forward to hanging out with them and also checking out the other younger ladies (GW, Rachel, C) with whom I served with in the youth ministry when we were younger-er. And also to spend time with Mom. I shall share about this camp when I get back. ;) I am soo excited.

Also, I need to find time to practise some of the songs for the competition coming up.. Its crazy to think I have gone this far. But, just like the same thought I had which JY also happened to mention to me when I am in doubt - quoting Esther from the Bible: I will never know where this may lead me. Esther's story had inspired me alot, especially working in the marketplace. She was going for a beauty pageant (so secular) and then became the king's concubine (even more secular). However, 'for such a time as that', she saved her own people. I believe she had never thought her story would be recorded in the best selling book today. In many ways, we can be like her. I shall go for it, hope to get through a few rounds and improve on my skills. And not forgetting that I will not get anywhere without my Mordecais.

Over Time

2007-05-26T13:41:00.000+08:00

'Spicy seafood' tastes better than 'mushroom chicken'.

Back to office today to quicken the completion of a cafe conceptual design. It is exciting, but yet a little scary. Since early April, I had been doing mostly back support tasks. A little nervous, but glad, I need to get this is one task done well, especially that I will have to critique my own work now.

Step by Step

2007-05-23T18:36:00.000+08:00

Patience... and more patience.. I always think that we are kind of waiting for something to happen all the time. I still think so. It is part of a process. Flowers need time to bloom. O.. How I wish I would be able to appreciate the beauty of it, and I mean, NOW! :)

The Narrow Path

2007-05-16T18:59:00.000+08:00

Life have been going on more or less the same as it had always been for me before May 2006. It had been months of tough times.. And I mean, really tough. Only those in close contact knew, and I really thank you for walking with me (If you know who I am refering to, and you are reading this: Thank you from the bottom of my heart!). But most of all, it had always been Him, showing me how to live. Taste, and know that the Lord is good, always!

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28
Click here to read Romans 8:28-39

Stretched and stronger, I now pick up where I had left and tread slowly.. Walk alongside with me, if you would. For now I seek true company, to walk the narrow path which I may not deviate from, ever again.

Mirages

2007-05-12T23:40:00.000+08:00

Mirages are not real. What seems beautiful and mysterious from afar turns out different once you see it closer.

What's real, comes with a price. A love sacrificed, a difficulty overcame, a painful experience - finished and not ran from, tears fallen and the ugly exposed. Open, is different from open-mindedness.

What's behind the success of those that seemed to be, could only be known by those who had been up close and immediate. Nobody's prefect. Rumors we had heard and perhaps passed are nothing unusual. A murderer or a liar, or just a thought that spells evil - makes a sin. Only by grace can we enter.

Never stop loving because that's the only way out of the circumstances unexpected. Love, if there's fear. Love especially those most difficult to love, and not just those who love in return. Never give up.

Getting Directions

2007-05-04T12:37:00.000+08:00

I remember with details of one assignment given to me and my groupmates as part of our design programme in interior design. It set us on a fresh approach to 'find our way' to our actual project site through asking for directions even though we already knew where it is.

We set about our journey at different day and time, within the proximity where it was situated. As best as I could, I tried not to think about the way I knew how to get to my destination and started asking for directions. Initially there were a few people whom I had approached, gave leads to my hunting. And, there were a couple of them who gave wrong directions! Of course the rule of the game was to follow the leads. Thinking that it could be the description that I had tried to give that were misleading them, I attempted to make myself clearer. Where was it near to, what the place used to be used for, etc. Nevertheless, the people who 'helped' still confidently pointed me further from where I needed to get to. Somehow, what could have been a walk of 20 minutes, turned out to be a couple of hours of 'chasing wild geese'.

The last person that finally brought me to my destination left the deepest impression on me, even till now. He was a trishaw guy waiting for some tourist to board his vehicle. I had introduced myself to be a student trying to find this place for my school assignment.. blah blah blah.. Without much hesitation he offered me a ride, F.O.C. (free of charge)! As quickly as the offer came, I agreed without much thought given. At normal rate, a tourist had to pay around S$50. Sometimes when I think back and realise that it could have been dangerous to hitch ride like that, but thank God, I believe there was just this peaceful trust I had in this kind old man who happened to be just waiting for the unseeming patron. Or rather, I was just too glad that I had a chance ride on a trishaw! For free and to give my feet a much needed break. 'It must be from God', I must have thought to myself.

It was almost evening and the sky had darkened. The ride took us through some very interesting places; some historical, some ethnical and some illegal. Much of which I had never seen. Apart from soaking in this amazing ride, we chatted and I gave description to the site. As it seemed to be all planned, the route of the trishaw ride fell perfectly where my destination was. We were right beside it and the journey ended. We bid goodbyes and I was so filled with gratefulness. He could never get to know that I would have get there on my own. Honestly, it did feel like deception. But I do not think I will ever do that again. God forgiven me.

This act not only gave direction to my design project. It also gave me the furtherance of the meaning I tried to seek in living each day, that focuses on a journey, not the destination. So here I am, putting thoughts into these words. What seemed to be a wrong direction and 'goose-chase' had turned out to be the directions which lead to the interesting and unexpected discovery of a divine adventure.

Whenever I pass by this same spot where I had first met him, I would look out for that familar face. However, that was the only time I met him.

His Word

2007-05-03T17:50:00.000+08:00

TO ME, there's really nothing special about the 3rd of May. However, I want to start writing so that people can know the person I am.

I want to dedicate the first space to the marvellous words found in the Bible, in Isaiah. For His thoughts are higher than mine.

Invitation to the Thirsty
1 "Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.
2 Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.
3 Give ear and come to me;
hear me, that your soul may live.
I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
my faithful love promised to David.
4 See, I have made him a witness to the peoples,
a leader and commander of the peoples.
5 Surely you will summon nations you know not,
and nations that do not know you will hasten to you,
because of the LORD your God,
the Holy One of Israel,
for he has endowed you with splendor."
6 Seek the LORD while he may be found;
call on him while he is near.
7 Let the wicked forsake his way
and the evil man his thoughts.
Let him turn to the LORD, and he will have mercy on him,
and to our God, for he will freely pardon.
8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.
9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
12 You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.
13 Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the LORD's renown,
for an everlasting sign,
which will not be destroyed." ISAIAH 55
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