Going in-saint

It feels like forever and some days can seem mentally toiling - of thoughts of losing everything familiar; in order to gain something unknown. And then, wanting to hold onto everything - especially memories.

And got to stay cool about this eh? Haha.. Of course lah.

Song by CCR: Have You Ever Seen The Rain?

Someone told me long ago
there's a calm before the storm,
I know; its been comin for some time.
When its over, so they say,
itll rain a sunny day,
I know; shinin' down like water.

Chorus:
I want to know,
have you ever seen the rain?
I want to know,
have you ever seen the rain
Comin down on a sunny day?

Yesterday, and days before,
sun is cold and rain is hard,
I know; been that way for all my time.
til forever, on it goes through the circle,
fast and slow,I know;
it can't stop, I wonder.

Creedence Clearwater Revival

Nowadays, I just want to grab on anything that inspires. I'm glad I still do. :)

Quotes

"Don't ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who have
come alive."

Howard Thurman

Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see
the whole staircase, just take the first step.

Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
American Civil Rights Leader

Less of, More of

Today, I almost sprained my sprained ankle on site again.

I am very much reminded of the passage in Matthew 6. I feel like the strange orange that Jye Lyu spoke of early this month - after being crushed and released some 'fragrance', it formed back into an orange again. It had been a lot of 'I' and 'me' recently.. Change, change.

One Step At A Time

Heart, don't fail me now
Courage, don't desert me
Don't turn back now that we're here
People always say
Life is full of choices
No one ever mentions fear
Or how a road can seem so long
How the world can seem so vast
Courage see me through
Heart I'm trusting you
On this journey...to the past
Somewhere down this road
I know someone's waiting
Years of dreams just can't be wrong
Arms will open wide
I'll be safe and wanted
Fin'lly home where I belong
Well, starting here, my life begins
Starting now, I'm learning fast
Courage see me through
Heart I'm trusting you
On this journey...to the past
Heart don't fail me now
Courage don't desert me
Home, Love, Family
There was once a time
I must have had them too
Home, Love, Family
I will never be complete
Until I find you...
One step at a time,
One hope, then another
Who knows where this road may go
Back to who I was
On to find my future,
Things my heart still needs to know
Yes, let this be a sign
Let this road be mine
Let it lead me to my past
Courage see me through
Heart I'm trusting you
To bring me home...
At last At last
Courage see me through
Heart I'm trusting you

Anastasia Soundtrack, Journey To the Past

The sprain I had is teaching me to take a step at a time.
To slow down. To be patient. There was pain at first, then much uncertainty. To learn to trust, to share on the experience, and take some painful steps. Allow the hurting to heal, and now walking like normal. Soon, I will be able to run, jump and be free!

Review 2007

After our company's appraisal session on Monday, it was self-reflection on the year's main scope of work. Overall, I was very much encouraged by the review and of course, challenged to improve further. Thank God for such understanding and loving authorities, who trust and share, like friends do. I appreciate each of the co-workers, for who they are - special beings who choose to bless others in each of their special ways. Especially those who take extra steps to be honestly themselves, like iron sharpening iron. I would not have improved over the year without you. Thank you for trusting me. I am all in to celebrate our success tomorrow evening!

Perhaps it was the preoccupation in thoughts that I lost focus on my physical surroundings. Is it surprising that it is the first time I did sprain my ankle? For some, sprains and fractures seems like part and parcel, I realised. Haha. Nevertheless, I appreciate the kind advice from friends these few days. I am getting better and faster, taking care not to loss balance in my eager to recover. I shall miss my badminton, swimming, cycling and shopping khakis for at least 2 weeks from now.. *sob* Chinese New Year is coming, you know. I shall be guai and be still..

Thinking forward, this year is going to be exciting I see. Planning ahead: Hoping to take up part-time teaching sessions with TP, make trips to the Philippines and China. Details are yet confirmed and thus the need for patient anticipation. Thanking the Lord for each breathe, each new morning. Each day serves its purpose, and preparations. Reading on Proverbs for much wisdom.

'Upgrade'

Yippy! I passed Basic Theory Test for Driving yesterday. Haha. It really felt great to progress ever since failing the first attempt. Never, never study editions dated as far back as 1996 (which was Mum's copy).

These days I hardly had the room to bump around.. due to a deadline coming soon. One highlight of each day -the television programs on TV - the drama series from 9pm, and Coffee Prince (Korean), which never fail to make me crack. Really weird characters and storyline. It is terrible to spend so much time in front of the 'black box'. I should stop once these shows are over.

Is the holiday mood still lingering or just a change of season? I need to get to working gear, to get design ideas flowing. Also, to master guitar this time, pick up some useful cookery basics from Mum, and make the most of my library premium privileges before it expires next month! (Manage to watch DVDs on 'Martin Lurther King', 'Charles Darwin's Bibliography', 'The Mystery of the MegaFlood' last weekend and left with 'The Fall of Communism'.) New year resolutions.

Ohh... and to improve the out-look of my blog. Have been wanting to do so for a long time!